My Dream... as of now

So i have bee drooling for the last little while as i have finally pinpointed what computer i am going to buy and how hard it's going to be for me to get it. sad face! but ya know the hard work will pay off once that baby is sitting in my lap...

Idiots come is small packages... hmmmmm

So i just had a little reality check and a swift kick in the face and why i decided to put it on here i don't know, because this idiot sure has come in a small package. So here i am trying to figure out how i am going to be able to afford to buy me a Macbook for school, don't try to tell me the are too expensive cause they aren't and it's not the name, it's 100 percent quality you pay for. anyway so i decided to look into ways i could save some money and get extra cash into my pockets. well then it hit me what am i spending my money on. Now here is where the idiot appears in this. Yes i am the idiot and oh boy could i save alot of money through simple dicipline. I went through this month and added up all of the transactions from food places from eating out... well guess how much money i have spent on food? FOOD! for crying out loud, im embarrased to even think about putting the amount here, well........ $220 bucks! im an idiot! so my goal this next month is no fast food, now i know there is no way to not eat out, but im gonna give myself a 50 dollar limit and see how it works, maybe even less. but come on Devin! you're an idiot, you could have so much more saved if you just ate at home. so there it is my stupidity of the day.

Never Stops... It Never Stops...

Now the title of this entry really has nothing to do with what i am going to write, because honestly i have no idea what it is im about to write here. One of the things i used to have to do in one of my writing classes was just write for ten minutes at the first of class and just write whatever it was i thinking, and it made for some pretty interesting thought processes. In a way im gonna kinda do that here, but try to make some kind of point and sounds important. It's amazing to me how life is the way that it is. It'f fasinating to me why god does what he does and how much his love is shown through what he does... now that could be debated upon depending on who you are, say you are from the little town of Epping, NH who goes to the little white community church on the corner of elm street and they are teaching that god is a vengeful god, he tries and works to make life miserable, trials aren't for us to learn from, they are only there to burden us and if god was a merciful god he wouldn't give us such trials. Coming from my point of view and from what i have been taught from a very young age, life if a beautiful thing! trials are to help us grow and understand who we are as children of god. It fasinates me! We meet people in our lives that in someway will either be a great benefit to us or will hinder our spiritual growth in many different ways. Lucky for me i count myself very lucky to have the people in my life that i do. One of which at this point in my life is becoming very important to me and it tends to be difficult to make myself kinda sit back and not do too much at once. i am happier, i want to continually be a better person, i want to make goals and meet them simply from the way that this one person is living thier life and it's a big example to me and it's something i want to have in my life. Looking at this situation makes me step out of any kind of mentality the little white church has and be very grateful that Heavenly Father would put such individuals in my life. Im happier than i've been in a long time, excluding the incredible joy felt while living in the New England states, cause it's hard to get much happier than that. Life is good!

"Im grateful for this day i have to live, for my health and for each breath i have to take in, im grateful, im thankful. Some days are not so great, when nothing seems to go my way, then i remember that i have no right to complain, it'd be a foolish thing to say, cause im blessed. Im grateful for these worn out shoes, im grateful cause at least i have a pair. Im grateful for the struggles in my life that i've had, cause its times like these that make me who i' am."
-Bianca Merkley

Im in a good place...

It possibly cannot be put into words, but in all reality i claim to have the best freinds in the world. It's kind of like when two guys fight over who's mom is better, but we all know in reality that mine is the best, and with that said, the group of friends i have are the best! The refiners fire describes the last five months or so for me. Why? If you have spent any good amount of time with me lately you would understand. Being refind is always a great blessing though, because it requires you to step back and look at yourself and make some changes. Because of such a fire taking place in my life i have met some of the greatest people in the world. a few individuals (not going to give names) have made a huge impact in my life and helped me out so much. One of which consistently makes me want to be a better person and i find myself experiencing more than just happiness, but joy. I couldn't ask for anything more in life. IM IN A GOOD PLACE!

"I feel my mind start to float... i float the Minnesota, this is where i float. and now i know it won't be long, before my ship does come along... i can only see this water, i can only see this water for miles and miles, i float the Minnesota... this is where i float... and now i know it won't be long... i float the Minnesota beneath and orange sky, no need to bend my soul for a girl..."

-Cory Mon

Progression...

It's been a while once again, but time permits me to put down some thoughts of the last little while. I've had alot going on recently, had alot of doors open and many close. But life has to be that way sometimes. Between me trying to get into school and working all sorts of hours at two jobs i finally have reached a point of where i feel like i have made some progression towards big goals i have made for myself since i returned home from New Hampshire. It feels quite nice actually. Meeting new people has been one of the biggest influences in me stepping out of my comfort zone and working harder for what i really want in life, namely true joy, happiness, education, true friends, and the gospel. Not that all of my friends from high school aren't any good, but it's come to a point where change has to be made. I feel we are in one of the most important times in all history... im excited about what lies ahead for this country, im excited for what lies ahead for me personally, and im excited for what lies ahead for those i love. Life is just good and there couldn't possibly be anything to worry or complain about.

"And it's a great day to be alive, i know the sun still shining when i close my eyes..."

-Travis Tritt